Ponderings....

I should really be doing work at this moment, because it's Christmas eve and I want to get out of work ASAP. But I need to put my thoughts down before the excel spreadsheets suck my mind dry of any creative juices!
So, I've been thinking about postponing my trip again, by another couple of weeks. Part of me wonders how much of this is actual intelligence and how much of it is cold feet. I have a lot of stuff I need to do before I leave. Not necessarily time consuming tasks. The things I need to get done I could easily get done within the two weeks after work ends and when I'm currently planning on leaving. But some of the things I need to do require large sums of money. My budget for my trip is based on a sum of money completely unrelated to my severence. So I'm starting to think that maybe I should wait till I'm done receiving my severence, which the official end date is 2/23, or at least wait till mid February with the last full severence check. Then I could use that money to take care of the items I'm concerned about without having to tap into my travel money with the assumption that I'll replace it with severence money. I know myself... all to well... and know that I might have good intentions, but that probably won't happen. When I went to England and Paris several years back I ran out of money and I'm very aware of the potential of that happening again unless I'm very careful. In fact, the reality of that happening is why the trip has changed from "ehhhh, i'll just go wherever I want whenever I want, no timeline or schedule at all... i'll see where the wind takes me" to "maybe I should have an idea of a timeframe for where I'll be in places and how long i'll be there, at least a general guideline so that I can budget accordingly and avoid the dreaded 'OMG MY BANK ACCOUNT IS EMPTY!!!'". It's happened before... I wouldn't put it past me to happen again!! And, of course, there's always a selfish underlying, part of me just wants some time to chill at home, sleep in and have time to hang out with my friends before I go.
I guess more thinking and time will tell what ends up happening. In reality, what's another two weeks... I'm still gonna go!