Choices and Decisions

I find myself within about 10 days of when I need to make a decision about what route this trip is going to take. Originally my choices were to either cut the trip short or hang in there for the whole duration. While at one point, I thought the issues that arose to make me have to even consider this decision had been sorted. I've since realized that they haven't. I'm still trying to sort things out. However, now my choices have multiplied.
Not only have my choices multiplied, but they are things that I've always wanted to pursue. I'm having doors opened to me that I never would have imagined. Also I'm realizing that I might be having to strengthen my faith muscles quite a bit.
I've been asked, a few times, to pray about being on staff here in Jaipur with the YWAM team I'm currently staying with. They mentioned this before I ever left the states, but I was so caught up with the entire trip that I didn't give it as much thought as I should have. Now that I'm here, and especially now that I've learned a little more about the city, I'm starting to wonder if this is indeed where I'm meant to be for a bit. A bit longer than I'd originally intended.
I've been given the opportunity to refine my talents in photography in a way that can bring glory to my amazing God. While at the same time, I learned this morning that Jaipur is a city that is hard for a woman to live in. Girls are forced to marry at very young ages, female babies are aborted, simply because they are female, there are lots of different areas of oppression for women here. This might explain why i've been feeling the way i have for the last few days. Not really like myself. But it also breaks my heart for the women here. Because of the things I've been through in my life, I have a soft spot for women. More so than just the fellow woman sympathy for things that people go through. But I find myself genuinely wanting to help women overcome challenging, crippling circumstances.
I suddenly find myself asking, where else can I go and be fulfilled both creatively and spiritually?
But I also find myself looking at my bank account and asking, how is this going to work!?
If I make the wrong decision, the impact could be devastating. It could be devastating either way really... to miss an opportunity that God has dropped in my lap could have just as large of an impact as running out of money while I'm serving him in a foreign country. Just different impacts.
I said to God, if you want me to do this, then make x, y & z happen. It's not that I doubt that he'll meet my requirements. But it's that, if I make him take away the challenges, how do I learn to grow in my faith? But that also brings me back to, what if I make the wrong decision and run out of money. I guess what part of that boils down to at the end of the day is, as long as I'm serving God, he'll take care of me. But I've been out of his will for so long, I want nothing more than to make sure I'm wholeheartedly wrapped in it now.

Decisions, decisions.....