I'm terrified about what I'm getting ready to do!
I might put up a good front, and I have my days where the excitement does genuinely out weigh the nerves. But the closer it gets, the more undeniable it gets that it's really happening and the more nervous I get.
The only thing I can really surmise it to, the nervousness that is, is the fact that I'm no longer an innocent 22 year old. That's when I would have been in my hay-day doing this. But 10 years and lots of life has happened since. I'm older, more cautious and jaded. I don't look at life with innocent eyes any longer, I've lived and I know what's really out there in the world. I know about all the ickiness that I was oblivious to before. I know that not everyone is nice or can be trusted. And I'm going out on this adventure alone....
No comments:
Post a Comment